"When You Gonna Love You?"

I recently had the good fortune to come across this video made by a Tori Amos fan. At the moment, it's helping me find some moments of pleasure in the midst of a lot of pain...

Link to this video here: http://youtu.be/Y0nX_oXNnmY

Late, Rattled and Determined

Hello to all of you! Thank you for reading this blog.

I'm late this week in posting.

My apartment has been invaded several times over the last ten days. The people who did this have left behind threatening messages. The messages were related to my singing, and to things I'm doing to spread information about healing and connecting with natural/physical/biological intelligence and the earth.

I'm focused right now on securing my apartment and considering what steps I need to take next.

At this point, I intend to start posting again regularly next week.

Thanks for your understanding.

Captivity

It is 3 or 4 am, and I am awake.

I decide to take advantage of the time by forgiving myself.

Forgiving myself and freeing and releasing myself from those current connections in my life where I sense potential aggression towards me.

I see a few individuals in my mind's eye, and forgive myself for my involvement with them.

Then I turn my inner eye on myself.

To my astonishment, I see myself shackled, manacled, blindfolded. I am seeing that I am a captive. The captive is a sitting duck for those who like being on the perpetrating side of capture.

I forgive myself.

I tell my natural/physical/biological intelligence to reorganize me, so that the captive becomes instead the human being who claims her space, who is competent and able to live free.

Nature goes to work immediately. I am grateful. Eventually the captive me will be replaced by the free me.