A Horse Breathes On Me

I was feeling dispirited yesterday, because of recent developments in my life.

I decided to go for a walk. I find that being outside of four walls really helps when my emotions are taking a belly flop.

And in rural New Mexico, where I now live, I find it pretty well impossible to stay down for long when I go outside. Mountains, big fluffy clouds, hummingbirds, sunflowers growing along the roadside... it's enough to make me want to learn to use my camera! (That's another long story.)

I crossed the acequia (beautiful, rock-lined irrigation stream) near my home, walked across a meadow, and followed a driveway that passes by a horse pasture.

Two of the horses looked up and clearly signalled that they were curious about me. I love horses, so I decided to return the favor. I walked towards the fence marking their space and started telling them how beautiful they were... two gorgeous chestnut horses, gleaming in the sun, one with a narrow, lightning shaped blaze on its forehead.

I guess they liked the sound of me, since they ambled on over to the fence, poked their heads over and started sniffing me and generally checking me out. I started to stroke the one closest to me. It was somewhat interested, then started to move on.

The second horse was very interested, though. It responded to a few strokes along its neck by putting its mouth and nose right next to my throat and treating me to ten or fifteen rounds of the sound and warmth of its breath, exhaled across my throat and face.

I am new to the country and new to horses. My instincts said, no problem, so I stood there fairly calmly, receiving the beauty of its breath with all the presence I could muster. And of course, I also registered the fact that I don't know much about what to look out for when spending time up close with a horse, and its big teeth were right next to my throat. My decision in the moment was to stay for a while.

I was mesmerized enough that I can't exactly remember now who backed off first, but I bet it was me.

The horse and I hung out a little longer from a farther distance, looking at one another. I continued telling that horse how beautiful I thought he/she (gender was not revealed in this encounter) was.

I discovered on this visit that horses have impossibly exquisite eyes! I was amazed by the shape, by the quality of the light reflected by their eyes, and by the integration of power and tenderness I saw in their eyes.

Those horses returned me to my equilibrium, and I was able to take several productive actions over the rest of the evening.

This morning, I searched the web and found inspiring information about the qualities horses demonstrate and can teach us.

I also found this video that brought me to tears through its exploration of horses and the connection between them and the human spirit.

CD Withdrawn

Hello once more to all who read this blog...

My intention was to leave all the posts about the Feel the Love, Get the Respect CD up at this blog. (I've been promoting that CD at this blog for roughly the past year.)

However, I have decided to remove that CD from the public marketplace. Over the next few weeks, I will also be  editing most of the posts directly related to the first tracks of the CD so that those posts no longer continue irrelevant information related to the CD.

An emerging theme in my life over the past year and a half has been my growing discovery that from earliest childhood on, I have been involved in mind control and programming. I have only slowly begun to understand the full implications of having had this experience.

In mind control and programming activities, children are tortured and traumatized, in such a way that they cannot remember what happened to them. Some people ultimately start recovering their memories, and after many decades of self-healing efforts, I am now one of those people.

According to my present understanding, the purpose of the activities I got caught up in is to create a fragmented mind and personality structure. A fragmented person can be more easily controlled and "used" for various purposes.

At the time I recorded the CD, I knew I had had a very tough life. I did not know I had been subjected to mind control and programming. I didn't even know that such activities existed. I believe that recording the CD and singing out my intentions that humanity receive love and respect catapulted me into my discovery of the truth of what has happened in my life.

I still think there is a great deal of beauty and power on the CD I made. However, I have also become acutely aware of how the fractures within myself impacted the quality of the project. I no longer feel I can stand behind it with full integrity.

It is time for me to let it go, focus on self-healing work, and eventually bring forth new creations.

If anything I am saying here rings a bell for you, I can tell you that I've begun finding help for the issues facing me at the sites I list immediately below. For the record, I make no profit for mentioning any of these sites.

www.traumahealing.com
www.waysofthewildinstitute.com
www.evelorgen.com
www.offplanetradio.com

Here's one of my own practices for dealing with the aggression I've experienced:
http://relationshipswithnaturalintelligence.blogspot.com/2012/08/antidote-to-being-too-nice.html

New Blogs Are Up and Running!

Hello to all of you!

Thank you for visiting this blog, wherever you may be in the world.

I appreciate your interest, and it is my pleasure to offer you information you may find practical and useful for increasing your pleasure in life.

I'm excited to announce that I've launched four new blogs as of today:

Food & Recipes with Natural/Physical/Biological Intelligence

Healing with Natural/Physical/Biological Intelligence

Creativity & Artistic Process with Natural/Physical/Biological Intelligence

Relationships & Society with Natural/Physical/Biological Intelligence

These blogs can also be accessed through my profile.

My original plan for this blog, www.praiseincarnation.blogspot.com, was to focus it on a CD project I was promoting for a time. However, I'm no longer continuing with that project for complex reasons related to my recent discovery that I have been a recipient of mind control/programming, as practised in the MK-Ultra program and others. Click here for more details.

I have edited this blog so that the CD is no longer part of it, and instead what you will find is a series of ideas and musings related to conscious, mutually supportive communion with natural/physical/biological intelligence.